I'm just gonna say it.

It's my birthday in FOUR days! I can't help it but tell everyone. Seriously, I am telling everyone. 

I am just so excited to not be 18 anymore! People keep telling me that they might actually like me when I'm not 18... whatever that means...

Today I made the most beautiful chocolate rose! It is so pretty and it smells AMAZING! 

Just like chocolate :) mmm.

amazing right!?

I am so obsessed with my confectionary class. 

This semester has not been easy at all. But I think Sunday may have made up for everything bad that has been happening. On Sunday I got to give the lesson in Relief Society and I was freaking nervous out of my mind. I felt so insignificant and I keep feeling like there is so much more I can learn from the return missionaries than they can learn from me. Sometimes I forget that I have been through a lot in my life, more than most people a lot older than me ever go through. 

I gave my lesson and I look up to finish barring my testimony and I see one of my roommates crying! At first I thought, no, there is no way she is crying because of my lesson. I then opened up the lesson for the other girls to bare their testimonies. Wow. So many girls stood up. I was in shock. They kept expressing about how they felt the spirit so strong during the lesson and the room was just so warm. 

We all know I am not one to get all spiritual on people, I believe the church is true, but I am not going to get all crazy and teary about it. I never cry. But as soon as we closed the Relief Society and the bishop's wife came up to me and told me how amazing the lesson was. I started crying! Where there tears came from... I do not know. But I just could not help it. It was such an amazing Sunday. Knowing that my lesson touched atleast some people in the room means the world to me. I think I have finally got over my feelings of thinking I am inferior to people. I can be a good teacher and I know what I am doing, thanks to all the crazy and hard things that have happened in my life. It is weird to actually be thankful for those things now, when there was a point in my life that I couldn't help but absolutely hate my life because of those things. 

This blog is out of hand. I am not enjoying the cold, at all. Hello, I am from Arizona, stop asking me if I am enjoying the cold. I don't even think people from Rexburg are enjoying the cold.

I am so excited to come home and visit for a weekend. Even if it is just a short break from the cold it will be really nice :) 

10 days till home!