honestly?

Wait I am confused... I thought we were in college now and past all that stupid hook up crap that was before your mission and before high school. 

I guess not. That is funny though. Yeah, just keep walking around doing the same thing to every girl. That is going to earn you an even better rep than you already have. 

Boy are soooo dumb. I wish that when you got to college everything would end up being different and boys would finally have this realization that it is not cool to just hook up with girls and pretend you like them, when in reality, you don't. Unfortunately, boys know the extent of the power they have over girls and they definitely use that to her advantage. 

you must watch

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=atBg9zLI2bA

Don't worry, I will be praying for you.

Another topic.

Boys, if you want girls to like you, you have to BE NICE! Not all girls dig the big mean guy thing.

Not attractive at all. Insulting? soooo elementary school. I don't want you to tease me all night, I want you to talk to me and have an intelligent conversation. If you can't even do that... then there is no hope. Just kidding. There is still hope, you will just end up dating a girl that cares all about her looks and how many friends she has on facebook, rather than all the important things in life.

Another topic. 

What the heck is all this hate about? There are so many high school kids on facebook posting on others walls and commenting on peoples status' saying things that are just downright unacceptable. And now they think that this is funny? or even cool?  I will admit I do spend a lot of time on facebook, more than I should. It very much distracts me from homework. But that is a completely different subject.

Anyways, hate. whattheheckhighschoolers. 

It honestly repulses me that these are the kids that people actually want to be friends with, makes me so sick. If this is what our society is coming to... we are all screwed. So glad I am done with that embarrassing stage of life. Looking back, high school was a waste of energy. Being social is great and all, but once you are graduated... how much did all that money spent going to school basketball and footballs matter? And what about those weekends where you just decided you were going to spend the whole weekends with your friends because you were just so sick of your family? 

I have learned not to regret anything, so do I regret those crazy experiences I had? Of course not. But I do wish that I could have spent more time with the people that really matter. My family. Just don't take advantage of them. Don't take advantage of the amazing home cooked meals, family movie nights, family vacations, family scripture study, family prayer, and just those times you would just sit down and just talk.

I would give anything to be able to be at home and experience all that again and not take advantage of it this time. Yes, I still do have a family, but my residence will never be in a home with them again. I love them with my whole little heart. 

Now, the point of that rampage was to explain how stupid high school kids act sometimes. I am a person who believes that everyone is a good person, until they prove me wrong. Which I do not like to be proven wrong if you know me. All you high schoolers are doing on facebook is putting other people down, acting like you know everything, and telling people information about you that should not be online. 

Obviously, I cannot tell high school kids what to do. But I can voice my opinion about how dumb they are. No disrespect, just an observation that I have been making since I came back to school after Christmas break. 

This blog went in a crazy direction that I wasn't even expecting it to go... whatever. 

we are getting a dog. shhhh. :)

missionaries.

i love letters from missionaries.

<3

I really cannot get enough of them! Ever since I was little and my dad was the ward mission leader I have totally loved missionaries! Just the amazing sacrifice they give for our church and the love the emanate for everyone around them.

"They leave their families for two years so others can be with theirs for eternity."

I love that quote.


Alright everyone, we are getting serious now!

Lately, I have been thinking a lot about serving a mission. I know it is still two years off, but I have never thought about it this much or this often. It could be the fact that half of the girls in my ward are return missionaries and I now have a roommate that served a mission. But nonetheless I am really thinking about it. And these woman are probably some of the strongest and happiest that I have ever met. And the knowledge that they have attained from going on missions is incredible. Since I am the first counselor I got the chance to call some incredible girls to be our teachers for Relief Society. I cannot wait to here from some amazing sister RM's :)

^look how happy I am to be writing missionaries^
(yes, if you are my friend and you go on a mission you will get multiple letters from me)
The greatest thing I have been able to be experiencing this year are mission farewells and mission call openings and the best are mission homecomings. I have the most amazing respect and love for all of my guy friends that are going on missions and are ready and worthy to serve the Lord. I can't believe we are already at this stage of our life! Girls that I graduated with are already MARRIED! whoa. slow down.

I even have more respect for those boys how struggle to go on missions. I think I almost cried when my best friend told me he decided he wanted to go on a mission. It came in a text that said something like... "I wanna go." I think that was the most beautiful thing I have ever read on my phone. You know who you are and you know how much I love you. You are making the right choice and you will not regret it. Stick with it boy. I am here supporting you one hundred and fifty percent. I love you.

best feeling ever. :)


Keep up the good work my lovely friends.

changes.

Saturday morning I got a very unexpected call from a member of my Bishopric from my new ward. 

Let me preface this, my new ward is my brother J.R.'s old ward. 

So, automatically I am already being called J.R.'s little sister....again. I really thought I got away from that after high school, apparently not. I guess that is what I get for choosing the same university as my brother. But then again, in 100 wards I end up in my brothers old ward...? really..?

Moving forward. So I get this call not knowing the number, thinking it was another Chinese person calling me looking for a nail salon, this happens frequently to me. So said Bishopric member tells me that I have a meeting with the bishop at 12:30 before church. 

ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh.

I was freaking out. I was so so set against getting a calling, I was scared out of my mind. 

Sunday rolled around and 12:30 came and there I was sitting in front of the Bishop. Then he spoke words that I had never heard before....

"Erin, you have been called to be the FIRST counselor in the Relief Society"

....what....

I was shocked and scared and nervous and excited and did I mention scared?

The only other calling I have ever had was a Beehive Advisor and they basically just ate up everything I said... This might be a little bit different seeing as I am going to be teaching a whole group of college girls that are older than me. Seriously, nerve racking.

So to every friend, family member, peer, student, teacher... if I am on edge, bare with me.
I do not want to mess up!
<3


More fun news, my FHE brothers are the greatest ever! Probably the funnest guys in the ward. Apartment 2211 got super lucky this semester with 12 handsome return missionaries as their FHE brothers <3
We are going to have the funnest semester ever.
 

Bring on the new semester.


Now, I must go pray.

What NOT to do.

do not blog when you are in a bad mood or angry. 

i apologize. 

Well everyone, i dyed my hair. I no longer have virgin hair. 

i think i almost cried when they were putting all that cold dye in my hair. 

before

after

alright, it doesn't look that different. but it really is! 

good thing i ended up liking my hair. and no worries, it is still as soft as it was before i dyed it :)

Christmas was amazing.

This is me and my cute cousin amanda, we were in sweats all day long. 

minus the fact of when we went to church of course.

i got everything i wanted and more for christmas.

secretly, scott loves me. I can't believe he is going on his mission so soon! He will be the most amazing missionary ever. Boise is getting on amazing missionary. watch out.

Well, I started writing this a week ago while I was still home and now I am back in REXBURG!

I am so ready for a new semester! and new boys. 

my new years was amazing, that's it. i love my mesa friends.

I am soooo happy Addyson Baldwin is my roommate this semester! 

shes ma best frand.

even though i can't stand her boyfriend sometimes... wait, what?

My new roommies are pretty cool too! we were worried but they ended up being super duper coooool!

NEW YEARS RESOLUTION

make it happen.

my goals will be reached, i will kick butt in school, i am not giving up this year.

bring it on 2012.

moment of truth.

High School is OVER.
time to move on and not look back. returning home ended up being really stressful at first. I basically wanted to be hanging out with all my high school friends like we used to... That is not going to happen.
I am old...er... and i can't go back to those days now. No matter how bad, or how not bad, i want to.
Therefore, goodbye high school, we cannot have that relationship again...
thank goodness.
I am ready to completely let go, things have been settled and i think i can enjoy the rest of my break without stressing about anything. (especially that ridiculous drama, which is the reason i left Mesa) i just get to enjoy the time i have with my family and my best friends.
I don't know what i was thinking trying to hold onto the past like that. soooooo not worth it.
<3

Last night i got the privilege to go to the airport with The Clouse Family to pick up my bestest friend. They even bought me a turtle neck so I could match them. wow. i love that family with my whole heart.
ANNOUNCEMENT EVERYONE!
Haleigh cried when she saw me. Alright, maybe she cried because she got to see her family too... but I am going to tell myself it was because she was so overly joyed to see me.





um.. i really dont know what else to say, i just really wanted to blog. 

4 more days till
CHRISTMAS! :)


yippeeee.

it's time.

I can't wait to be back in the 85213 :) I really do miss Arizona and I didn't realize how much I absolutely love it till I left! I would choose 120 degree weather and the scorching sun over negative degree weather and blistering wind, any day. ANY. DAY.


I am coming home.
<3


The things I'm going to do when i get home:
1. go to venezia's and bahama bucks with my bestie james.
2. attack william scott cook.
3. go work out at good ol' Mountainside Fitness.
4. chill with my fab five brothers and mother :)
5. attack haleigh nicole clouse along with baby mak.
6. wrap christmas presents.
7. more christmas shopping.
8. more wrapping.
9. do nothing because i have NO HOMEWORK!
10. reunite with the gang.
11. bakebakebakebakebakebake.
12. visit my two cutie grandmas.
13. go see the temple lights!
14. hang out with adds and code.
15. sing christmas music, all day.
16. play my beautiful piano and cello that i miss so much.
17. avoid painting my nails on a daily basis, I'm getting obsessed.
18. go ice skating.
19. shop with my mommy.
20. Skype people, like crazy.


the only thing i am absolutely NOT looking forward to is the 16 hour car ride with my brother...
good thing Taylor Reber is coming with me! He will keep our fighting to a minimum.



I don't know how I am going to last almost three weeks without seeing Casey Nielsen.

so i don't love him. but Joy loves us. and he is the greatest boyfriend ever :)
!!!!THANK GOODNESS FOR SKYPE!!!!

i love cd's, made by casey.


now that i have ranted about him so much... let's move on.
ONLY FOUR MORE DAYS TILL I SEE HALEIGH NICOLE CLOUSE

:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)
<3 i am so excited <3


This is going to be the best Christmas ever!!

happy christmastime, from the burg.

my opinion matters.

I am sure by now the whole world has heard about BYU Idaho and the Skinny Jeans scandal. 

puhhhleaseeee. 

If that is really going to sway your opinion about how you feel about the church or coming to this school, you are retarded. seriously.

NO, skinny jeans are not banned from being worn on campus. 

YES, they don't want you to be wearing pants that are so tight you can see everything. 

If they are going to tell me I can't wear my jeans though, fine. I will just scrap up some money from my poor college account that is rather anorexic (or should I say bulimic because it just keeps throwing that money up somewhere) and go out and find a couple more pairs of jeans. 

After all, I did sign the honor code.

Moving on to....

finals. 

oh my, I have a few choice words to say about a couple of my classes.

Finance, cool.

College Success, what a joke.

Book of Mormon, my final is getting to the celestial kingdom someday.

American Foundations, please, shoot me now. I just want to pass.

Science, why is my grade so fetching low. 

Finals are designed to make college students spend two weeks doing nothing but stressing out and locking themselves in their rooms or marrying a seat in the library and doing nothing but going through old quizzes, reading textbooks, emailing teachers questions, getting last minute tutoring sessions from tutors who need to study as well and just crying from studying so much. 

Why do we do this to ourselves? 

So eventually someday we can graduate from this place called college with a degree and major that we changed more than just once and so we can get a job or start a new groundbreaking company so we can eventually all be rich and have whatever we want with that beach house and 7 boats sitting in our multi-million dollar garage alongside our pimped out Escalade and Ferrari.

finals. 

Someday, they might be worth it. Today, they just give me a headache.

Now, onto more important matters. 

HOT CHOCOLATE. 

Since Rexburg, or Idaho for that matter, doesn't have Quik Trip's I have to settle for something a little more... available. Like, Maverik's or those tubs or hot cocoa mix sitting in my pantry. On a weekly basis since I have been to school I have probably drank 3 to 4 cups a week. Roughly.

The coldest it has got here so far has been -2.

Now, back in Arizona, where freezing there is just below 50 degrees, I probably drank about 8 to 9 cups of hot chocolate a week. Pathetic? no. I just really loved hot chocolate.

Unfortunately, now that I FINALLY have a good excuse to drink hot chocolate, it not longer interests me as much as it did. 

bummer. 

My best friend, William Scott Cook, is headed to the Great Boise, Idaho Mission on February 29th. 

I don't think anyone understands how absolutely excited I am for this boy.

Number one because my letters will get to him sooooo fast. 

Number two because he is my best friend and i love him to pieces.

And Number three because why wouldn't I be excited!? 

Nothing can break our bond. Not distance, not a mission, not a boyfriend or girlfriend. Nothing. People say that your friends from high school will just disappear when you go to college. But I strongly disagree. 

Here's to many years ahead of us on this road of uncertainty.